And the verdict is...

It's a girl. Almost 100% sure. Just like Talon did, she flashed the ultrasound so we knew for sure what gender she was. Wonderful children.

I think her and Talon are going to be best friends.

We have some names picked out, but we are just going to have to wait to see what she looks like in a few months.

Best part: she was smiling when they took the picture of her profile. That's my kid.

I can already tell, she is going to be pretty dang good looking :) Wouldn't have it any other way - she's our kid :)

Today's the day!

We find out what we're having! It almost feels like it's our first one because we're so excited! We've had many predictions, most of them girl. But I can honestly say I have no mother's intuition on this one. With Talon I knew it was going to be a boy. With this one, I've had feelings of twins, a boy at time, a girl at other times and now I'm just going to wait until the ultrasound.

So fingers crossed it's a human, and there's only one. Until next time!

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions....

I though all of my adult decisions were done with! I mean I got married, finished school, got a job, had a kid, got a place of my own.. now what? I wish I had a magic 8 ball that can give me all of the RIGHT answers for all my decisions. But alas, we got other resources that aren't so quick to answer :)

Here is an update of life so far.

*I walked for Graduation in December. We were lucky to have Quinten L. Cook of the Quorum of the Twelve come and speak at commencement.

*We sold the "devil dog". We called him that because he was smart as a whip, but knew exactly what not to do and did it anyway just to get back at us. And he didn't really like the fact we held Talon at a higher level than him. And Talon turned out to be allergic to him. So the next one will definitely be a Scottie because they don't shed and they have hair instead of fur.

*Hutch is going to school full time. We have his graduation plan all figured out and he knows what he wants to do for sure when he grows up. I told him there is no turning back. Orthopedic Surgery. After he got his knee operated on last summer he has had the feeling he needed to be more than just a physical therapist. Med school, here we come. Luckily, we have found a good program where he can do all of his schooling and residency in Idaho, but we will definitely keep our options open. If anyone has any suggestions on anything, please help. We have no clue what we're doing with this medical thing and don't know many people that can help us. So any referrals or information would be great!

*And I guess everyone knows by now, but yes, I am pregnant. I am due July 22, the day after check outs for my job. That should be interesting. Now the big decision comes. I don't know whether I should quit my job, or just go part time after I have the kid. I really don't want to take a month old child to day care while I work, and I don't have the option of bringing them to work with me. We also don't have family around that is in the position to babysit either. At this point in our lives, I almost don't have the option to stay home with them either. With Hutch in school and having our own place, it's just a hard decision. I mean, we can live off of student loans that he gets, I mean he's going to medical school anyway, might as well build it up ;) Any suggestions would be great on this too.

*Talon is growing like a weed, mentally and physically. He is starting to get the "Ott build" with a barrel chest and skinny lower body. He loves going to see his friends everyday at day care and doesn't hesitate to remind me who is all there by saying all of their names on the way there. He is talking like crazy and sings his ABCs with only 7 letters. He has the tune down, but just repeats the same 7 letters through the song. "A B C D, L O P!" Pretty dang cute! His favorite songs to sing to go to bed are: Twinkle, Twinkle; I love to see the Temple; Jesus wants me for a Sunbeam; ABCs; and "Mama's song" AKA "Angel Lullaby" from "My turn on Earth". He loves the whole idea of running. He will run from one end of the house to the other while yelling "Run, Run!" He definitely makes my day better when I get home from work. It just sucks I only get to see him 2 hours before work and 2 hours after work. Someday, I will get to be more involved my kids' lives.

*Side note: it hasn't snowed here in Rexburg yet. By now we usually have 3-4 feet already fallen, but no. We have rain and wind. Signs of the times (seasons switch and change, etc) is a possibility.

Well, that is our lives as of now, mixed with laughter and homework. Hope everyone is having a good January.

Peer Pressure...

I always thought that peer pressure was for Jr. High and High school. Well, it turns out, everyone experiences it.

College - Going to parties and dating

Newly Married - Babies

Mid-life - Keeping up with the Jonses

Retired - What protective underwear (Depends) to use

In our LDS culture we are encourage to go forth and multiply if you are healthy and financially able - which I have noticed is about every 2 years. Yes, there are a few exceptions out there. But I'm just talking about my observations. With friends who are pregnant or are planning on getting pregnant soon and have kids Talon's age - I'm really feeling the pressure.

It doesn't help that I kind of feel guilty that I probably should be planning on another one. I have had this thought in my mind for about a month now. It eventually went away a couple weeks ago and the Lord blessed me with dreams every night for a week of my future children. I was totally fine with having just one, but then the the little voice whispers in my head, "What we want isn't always what the Lord wants for us." Great. I get it. But I kinda wanted to wait until I felt ready to have another. Nope. Now I have friends dreaming for me that I was pregnant and having more kids. And no, I didn't tell them about anything I've been experiencing. And it doesn't help that my husband has been having the same feelings. And we won't even mention that it's coming from both sides of the family too.

Yes, I understand. It will happen. I'm not saying I'm pregnant. But if you can guarantee me that I will have another boy, then I will be prego by the end of the month. Unless, God wants me to have a Mary experience and have it happen before then. We'll see.

Wow...

So, my last post, let's just say I was on a mental break down. That usually doesn't happen. But I am back and am ready to take on the world once more. So much has gone on so here are the highlights in a nutshell.

July
* My brother and wonderful family were sealed in the St. George Temple for time and eternity. It has been such a long road for them and I am so proud of them for sticking it out and making it possible. Our family feels complete now.

* We celebrated Hutch's birthday by going to the St. Anthony rodeo with our friend. He had never been to one and it was great time. I can't believe he is 26 yrs old! My little man is growing up :) And the best present I think; he is getting a puppy. Not just any puppy, the kind of puppy he has wanted for years; a Doberman.

Now you ask yourself, "how are they able to get a puppy where they're living now?" Well folks, prepare yourselves to be amazed. In July we found a townhouse in foreclosure that we really wanted. It was rat race against another couple to get our offers in before the other and we ended up with best offer. We were supposed to close today, but apparently the sellers didn't sign for power of attorney with the bank and all the other paperwork, so now we have to wait until they sign the stuff; get it to our realtor; and then we can close. We found another couple to take over our lease in the apartment and they are moving in on Saturday the 20th. So, we have to be out before then (we wanted to be in our new place), but luckily we have family around that will let us stay for a few days until we close. Fantastic. This is going to be an adventure, that's for sure.

We are moving on with the next phase of life. We are going to be here for at least another 4 years because of Hutch's schooling, so we figured, why not settle down and then when we have to leave, we can just rent out the place. So, it is pretty much a win/win. We are super excited! Now closing day, get here faster dangit.

What the heck!?

What the heck is wrong with me? I probably shouldn't be writing this, but honestly I don't care. That's the problem. I don't care. I don't care if I don't get out of bed in the morning and I just leave my son for another hour while I sleep. I don't care to clean the house, do the laundry, or even get ready. I don't care about anything right now and it really bothers me. I used to want to go and do stuff, get ready for the day and go to work. I used to remember what I did 2 weeks ago, but for the life of me I just can't. I used to enjoy playing the piano, but I haven't touched my piano and really played in over a year. I used to care about what I looked like and loved to exercise, but now, I JUST DON'T CARE. I want someone to take care of me. To focus on my well-being. I want a trainer so I can get a jumpstart on getting back into shape. I want to be able to sleep in until 9 and not have to worry about getting up early with Talon. I want to able to go a day without doing the dishes or a load of laundry, forgetting about it so I have to do it again the next day. I want to be able to remember why the heck I went to the store without sitting in my car for 5-10 minutes trying to remember why I was there. I want to enjoy life again. I want a lot of things. But it looks like none of that is going to happen anytime soon. Sorry for the rant. I just needed to get it out. I love my son and my husband so much. I just want to be able to do everything for them.

Motivation

This is a picture of our trip to the I.F. Zoo

The dictionary defines motivation as:

1. Desire to do; interest or drive

2. Incentive or inducement

As of right now, I have neither the drive nor the incentive to do anything. Nada. Zip. Zero. I'm even trying to find a reason to put up this post.

I feel like all I do in my posts is complain and say the usual stuff of school and work. That's all we do. the same routine everyday. We are stuck in a rut. You can look back on any post and read about what we did and I can guarantee that we did the same thing today.

Ok, today was different. Hutch got surgery on his knee. He broke a piece of cartilage about the size of my fingernail off the bone and it was floating around in his knee. So they went in and got it out and then grafted some bone with cartilage off another part of his knee and put it in the spot that broke off. So it's been interesting to say the least.

So I need to sign off, now you know how I feel. I'm almost embarrassed to have anyone read it, but I'm a Comm major and writing just makes me feel better. I could never write a book, but short little dittys, that's what I excelled at. I think I should just start writing columns again.

Well until next time, hopefully I can live through the next 4 months. I'll keep you posted.